Yeah. What's up everyone?

Not that there will be much 'everyone' here I reckon. Sigh...has anyone realised that I'm speaking more and more like..um...more singlish? I'm starting to lose my oh-so-wonderful ability of speaking proper, a little accented (is it?) English. And THAT IS REALLY BAD.

Then again, think of my class, the people I hang out with everyday for school. Maybe I'm influenced by them eh? Ah, who knows. So bored here. All my assignments and projects are mounting up on me. Gotta go for that gourmet field trip, start thinking about my portfolio for MicroEcons, do the research for F&B, start reading and learning the totally online subjects of Travel Geography and Tourism Transport Business then submit my assignments online, start thinking of my expository writing piece of school uniforms...sigh. I'm really doubting my ability to handle several projects at one go.

It's probably cause I'm still in the holiday mood (hey, it's only like the 2nd week of school!) and I'm really lazy to buck up. Though I know I should if I'm aiming for a GPA of 3.5.

And my sis, being the lucky bum that she is, is currently in Brisbane for her concert band tour. Haiz.

Ok, I admit. I haven't been sleeping very well. Feeling very lethargic and yet, well, I gotta kick myself to get me going for dance classes. And yeah, I'm really really fed up with some people and I'm just praying for patience and compassion. But honestly, I'm all stretched out.

Whatever. I got to go now.

//I am very disappointed with you. Honestly. I'm just so let down by you. I won't deny that I have a rocky friendship with you. From the start since I came to church, I seriously begin to wonder where is your christian values. I just don't know how to talk to you about it, I didn't want to hurt you and besides, I do cherish our friendship and try to keep it going. But honestly, I can't get along with you, I can't agree with you. I don't even know why I stuck with you throughout. Maybe that's why you left. Maybe it's because I'm settling down so well. You are really just like all the people you told me you are disappointed with, all those who claim to be a Christian but acts otherwise. You've got so many people just dogging after you, trying to find out what in the world happened to you. All of us are concerned, we just can't stop trying to find out what's wrong. You don't even want to make eye contact when we meet you in school. Have you any idea how selfish you are? You don't see how people worry about your sudden disappearance. You don't know how they feel when you ignore them straight on. I really wonder if its all eating you inside. Where is your moral values? Ashamed huh? Heh. So go on, run and run and run like the little coward that you are. Because until you face up to your problems, you're really just a coward. A thorn, a weed. I've seriously given up on you. At first I wondered whether you were angry with me. Then I wondered if I should have approached you to talk it out, to help you. Then again, will you accept my help? If I asked you to be my mentee, would you say yes? I don't even know why I stood up for you back then. If that's the way you want to be, then be that way. Your future is yours, your problems are yours. They're not my business and since I've got better things to do, I shall just ignore you. You're wasting everybody's time, but that's fine. You'll reap whatever you've sown and if you ever do decide to come back, well, just remember what happened 2000 years ago on the cross. Need help? Go watch Passion of Christ. Cry it out, scream it out. Whatever it is, if you, in the end, decide to run back to us, I will still muster up my compassion and accept you back. I will even help you in any ways I can. But I'm not doing it because I care so much for you. I'm doing it for the glory of God. //